It's really been an awfully long time since I've been on dA much. I still like the site, sure, but in recent years I've tended towards Tumblr, and in recent months I've been mostly offline in general. Let me tell you, it has been refreshing.
But I still do like to come back here every so often. (And good thing, too; I had a fun note waiting for me.)
TBH I just came back because I was looking for a few fanarts I thought I'd saved, but then I guess I just remembered seeing them in my favorites folder, because they're /nowhere/ on my PC. I'm actually scrolling through my massively long favorites list as we speak, but because they seem to have done away with pages, it now takes forever for my computer to catch up, every couple of rows. So, while it loads, I'm here in another browser, doing this.
If you're curious, I'd say very little has changed in my life since last time you may have talked to me. It's like that, as I get older. In fact, so little has changed, I probably said the exact same thing in my last post.
I have, so far, spent much of this year writing. It was my New Years Resolution, in fact! I somehow managed to eke out an ending to my longfic, "Rogue" (HINABN)-- which I guess I ought to consider cross-posting here! Or linking, at least. For posterity's sake. I mean, it took me two damn years, so, y'know. After finishing Rogue in March, I madly started like 7 FFXV fics, none of which really took off unfortunately, and then spent two focused months on the first 3rd of a Fallout 4 fic (as of yet unnamed). At the start of this month I got super lazy and spent two weeks reading fanfic like my life depended on it, then remembered that I'm a huge One Piece fan, started rewatching the series and playing that damn phone game I can't put down, and started a Coby-centric fic that is probably going nowhere. Then, spontaneously (or perhaps because I was reading Guardians of the Galaxy fic??? and I love Rocket because obviously fluffy woodland creatures that ride on their tall partners' shoulders and like to throw sarcastic quips are A++) I got back into frigging Jak and Daxter, listened to the same song probably literally 500 times, and starting writing a fic for /that/ series.
Which is where I am now, and why I'm scrolling wildly through my favorites list.
Funny too, because that was what the note I got was about. Wild stuff. =]
More than anything, this year I've really found that I'm not capable of much multi-tasking. In any given day, I find I can focus on maybe 2 different things, work aside. On a larger scale, that also applies to months and years. Today: that J&D fic and socializing. This month: writing and One Piece. This year: writing and video games.
It's good to realize this about myself, as annoying as it is. Realizing it helps me deal with it. It helps me not be mad at myself for not... doing more, you know? I keep thinking, "God, I haven't drawn almost anything this year!" but then I realize that in order to do that, I have to sacrifice one of the other things I'm focused on, and it takes time to switch modes. Damn, if I hadn't gotten sucked into reading mode, I'd probably still be going strong on that FO4 fic. But that's what happens.
Anyway, I'm off to continue looking through that massive favorites list, whew, then trying to find a thing for a person, and then dinner, and then work, and then rinse-repeat. (Well, not the favorites list and the finding thing. You know.)
I hope the lot of you are doing well. Don't hear from you much anymore, but please do leave a comment if you feel so inclined. As much as time runs by and draws lines between us, I still love all the people I've been brought close to from the art and fandom communities, and I wish the best for you all. <3
((OH ALSO if you wanna chat, I'm most easily available on Instagram! The name is Eloarei_or_Else (because fucking 'Eloarei' was taken, somehow?). Other than that, you can always send me messages here, or on Tumblr (also 'Eloarei'), or like... wherever. Friends welcome! (don't leave me alone in this wide world, come on now!)